8.3.06

While laughter lights upon my lips/And lights are in my hair

Because I'm dumb....

Appearance

[ ] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x ] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color. (White hair. Or navy.)
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[x ] I have/I've had braces.
[x] I wear glasses.
[] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[x] I have more than 2 piercings
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears. (I want some, though...)
[] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life

[] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work

[x] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job.
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school.
[x] I almost always do my homework.
[x ] I've missed a week or more of school. (Yay, mononucleosis. NOT!)
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[] I've stolen something from my job.
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school.

Embarrassment

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried. (All the time.)
[ ] I've glued my hand to something.
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health

[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment.
[x ] I've gotten stitches.
[x ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[x] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[x] I had a serious surgery.
[x] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling

[x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. (Sooo many family trips. And, of course, road tripping with Michelle.)
[x] I've been on a plane.
[x] I've been to Canada.
[x] I've been to Mexico.
[x] I've been to Niagara Falls. (I don't remember, though, because I was 2 at the time...)
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. (Someday...)
[ ] I've been to Europe. (One of my life dreams)
[ ] I've been to Africa.

Experiences

[x] I've gotten lost in my city (Well, I guess it depends on what you mean by 'my city')
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star.
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] I've crashed a car. (Fender-bender)
[ ] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play.
[x ] I've met someone in person from the internet.(Yeah, but she was a friend of a friend IRL, so it wasn't a big deal)
[x] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ x] I've seen the Northern Lights. (But I was seven, and didn't think it was cool at the time)
[ ] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[x] I've played chicken. (Which version?)
[x] I've played a prank on someone.
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships

[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[x ] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ x] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of commitment. (Terrified, actually)
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've cheated in a relationship.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship. (That 'something' being a sweatshirt that is sitting at the bottom of my dresser)

Sexuality

[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[ x] I love to flirt.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[ ] I've been hugged by a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime

[ ] I am a terrible liar.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't. (...Which is why the ice cream is gone...lol)
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[ ] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world. (Oooh, lookit me, I'm MYSTERIOUS!)
[ ] I've cheated while playing a game.
[ ] I've cheated on a test.
[x] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[ ] I've shoplifted.

Death and Suicide

[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[x] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[x] I've planned my own suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism

[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece. (You have GOT to be kidding me!)
[x] I own something from Hot Topic. (If it wasn't so expensive, I would get so much from there...)
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[x] I own something I got on e-bay. (Various computer games, a couple books)
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie. (Yeah, right. Me, preppie.)

Political/Social Attitudes
[x] In general, I don't like people.
[x] I'm a feminist. (Meaning, I think women should have equal chances. No more, no less.)
[ ] I'm very outgoing.
[x ] I listen to political music. (Only if Green Day counts)
[ ] I'm Democratic.
[x] I'm Republican.
[ ] I'm liberal.
[ ] don't like Bush because he is dumb.
[ ] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[] I am for Bush.
[x] I'm religious. (Kind of. It's complicated)
[x] I dress fairly modestly. (For the most part, but I like corsets and leather pants, too)
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it." (Ew, no. There's too many people flaunting what they don't have, or have too much of...)

Random

[/] I can sing well. (I can carry a tune. End of story)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. (Like most 'Christian' songs out there...)
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I sing in the shower/bath.
[ ] I am a morning person. (Hell no.)
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. (I don't even HAVE a cell phone)
[x] I'm a snob about grammar. (Not quite a snob, but...)
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I twirl my hair.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[] I love being neat.
[ ] I've had Spam.
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[x] I bake well.
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school. (I have.)
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x ] I know how to shoot a gun.
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. (Yeah...)
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish. (When I want to be....)
[ ] I love white chocolate. (It's not even chocolate!)
[x ] I bite my nails. (Sometimes)
[x] I play video games. (YES! )
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[x ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
[x] My answers are totally honest.

4.3.06

The sea is calm tonight/The tide is full, the moon lies fair

I managed to fix the effing toilet this time. Home remedies work, at least in my case--I added some dishwashing soap....it worked. Huzzah!

I bought leather pants today. I look good in them. *squee* I've wanted leather pants for awhile now, and these were on sale, and Bekah convinced me....so, I am now the owner of a pair of black leather pants. And a really cool poster by Nene Thomas. (Eight million props to anyone who knows who Nene Thomas is.) And nifty dice. I bought a set--this really ugly pearly-orange colour, tee-hee, as well as a few barrel dice, 2 random d4's, and 3 matching d6's. Now, if I could only find my dice bag.

I was contemplating doing this posting in relation to various songs, but (sadly) most of the songs I had in mind for various situations are not currently within my mind's grasp (read: forgot).

Isaac is a sweet, sweet guy. Despite the flying monkeys.

I've lost my best friend...the one thing that I can remember the song for....

Can you look me in the eye,
And tell me that you're happy now?
Could you tell it to my face?
Have I been erased?
Are you happy now?

Jenn, I hope you are happy. Best wishes.


I found out depressing information: the Taylor divorce rate is higher (significantly) than the national average. That's scary. REALLY scary. I wonder how many Taylor students know this. Or care.

Michelle is amazing; I'm so glad we actually got to be real friends, as opposed to casual acquaintances who end up lab partners in Chem for Living. I saw her steal the show in Taylor's most recent play, "Flowers for Algernon," when she walked on stage in a jellyfish dress. No, I'm not kidding, or exaggerating. It's hard to describe, but it's impossible to miss.

Among other random incidents that have occured since the last entry:
1. Have gotten 3 quasi-random West Coast boys to profess love for me
2. Saw 2 movies in the theatre (Hoodwinked and UltraViolet), which makes a total of 4 for the school year
3. Re-did some of the furniture in the room; sadly, I still don't have enough shelf space for my books, despite packing them as tightly as I possibly could
4. Tested out of Spanish. I'm testing for credit on the 14th, I hope I pass.
5. Found out even more people don't like me, although I'm also starting to understand why people dislike me so much
6. Found out I'm not as repulsive as I've always thought
7. Found out I'm not insane
8. Started going to counseling
9. Became the prime suspect in a failed assassination attempt on the King.
10. My little brother (James) is going blind. Not cool at all.


I have to go in for my next menopause shot in about 3 weeks. It hurts like hell, and I won't be able to walk after it. Grar, I hate shots.


Things have been, all things considered, better than they have in a long while. Counseling is really helping; my counselor is really good. I'm hoping that it will help me work out my scads of issues. Or, more realistically, start working on my scads of issues.

I'm spending the weekend in Muncie, with Isaac's family. Apparently, they will shower me with terrible (and possibly funny) stories of Isaac's childhood. And teenagehood. Etc.

Alright, it's late, and I have to get up early...grr...if I'm crabby for the next....long while, it's because I didn't get to sleep in on Saturday.