But I can see/You're unimpressed

Sorry it's been so long. I feel a little ashamed, actually, that it's been well past the acceptable mark, at least in my opinion. But I am remedying that now, at least for now.
Work has been work, nothing great or special going on except that they ripped out the kitchen floor and therefore we don't have a kitchen downstairs and whoever brought out all the "necessary supplies" and put them in the (much smaller) upstairs kitchen did a really crummy job and most of what we need isn't available. *grump*
The latest Kim Harrison book has been out for over a week and it finally showed up at my door. Unfortunately, I can't read it right away because I've still got one-and-a-half library books to get through in the next few days and Margaret Atwood doesn't read terribly quickly. Hm. I might actually just finish that one (Blind Assassin, which is so far very good--but then, everything I've read by Atwood is phenomenal. But then [don't you love "but then's?] I've only read 3--this is the fourth--novels and a small handful of poems, so I don't know if I have a reliable foundation for saying she's great) and renew the other one for another three weeks, so I can read my Hollows book in peace. Actually, Thellie, you should read this series--you'd enjoy it. Dark urban fantasy, where a big chunk of the human population was killed off by a mutant virus that spread via a biogenetically engineered tomato.
Things are going very well with The Boy. I should point out that when I say "very well" I don't mean that we've never had an argument (actually, we haven't--the most we've ever had is a conversation that got a bit heated, but you get the idea) or never disagreed. We have, and it's been good, because we have been consistently working our way through that stuff, and each time it brings us a little closer (not that we can really get much closer, but you understand what I mean).
I may actually have the chance to introduce said Boy to "The Group" (if you're not sure it's you, it's not) this summer, as they're having a bit of a reunion and Headache #1 (I am Headache #2, btw, and the third party of this particular name-thing, Confusion, has dropped off the face of the earth. I used to feel quite upset about that, but over the past several years it has been downgraded to mild-to-moderate chagrin) sent out the letters and stated in said letters that significant others are invited as well.
Which brings me to another interesting bit. It's been years since I've seen these people. I've changed significantly, I know everyone who knows me from college would say so, except for maybe Austin because I was mostly like this around him anyway, but anyway the point I'm getting at is that I am almost a completely different person than I used to be and I'm not sure what (or who) they're expecting.
Some examples of changes in myself:
1. I actually have confidence now. I used to fake it, but now it's real.
2. I think well of myself.
3. I no longer dress in black. I mean, I wear some things that are black, but not that many and not all that often.
4. I smile a lot more.

Granted, I'm still the same person in the whole sarcasm, not willing to suffer fools, speak my mind sort of thing. But I'm finally comfortable with who I am and it shows, and I like it.

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